Today should have been the day I got to meet you. I was so excited when I found out about you I had so many plans. I was supposed to see you for the first time on December 23, just in time for Christmas. I had complications and anxiety because you were my first and I assumed it was just me and my nerves but I knew something wasn't right. We went to the doctor on December 17 and we didn't get good news. December 19 we had to say goodbye to what would have been our first baby. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I have dreaded this day for months because I don't get to share you with family or bring you home in your cute outfit. I just have memories not even one ultrasound. Mommy and daddy will never forget you. Happy birthday my sweet baby.