After many years, I feel like I’ve hardened because of things we have gone through in the past and our love languages have changed. He wants to be told he’s loved more and wants me to just be all over him and I’m just not as affectionate anymore. I do love him but he’s becoming soooo emotional and I not know how to take it bc he wasn’t always like this. Emotions are good, I’m just not used to him being like that... like I’m talking poems and getting upset about the simplest of things.

This morning he woke up not feeling well and I’m on it! Trying to see where we can get him in and who accepts his insurance... went to go get Lysol to spray in the car before he got in and just all around trying to take care of him with our 3 yo...

I get back home and we figured something out and I said, “ok, let’s go.” He asks if I wanted to go and I said yes! Then he keeps asking me more than twice and then says, “I know you don’t really want to go” and I said, “no I don’t really want to go! I want to go for you..” then it’s like shit hits the fan bc he got the answer he wanted???

I told him I was coming and started to make us breakfast drinks for the 35 minute drive but he left...

Then after I call him, he continues to go on and on about how I don’t support him and I don’t know how to love him and on and on.

I want to tell him to man up so bad but I don’t want to hurt his feelings.

You know when someone keeps telling you something about yourself and you know it’s not true..... but then you may start really being that way. Like it’s discouraging.

Now it feels weird to “try harder”... it feels fake to not let things come naturally. Like just shut up and let’s live.