So how do I deal with this (feel disgusting 😭)

My husband has (had) a fantasy about walking to to find me masturbating with no warning. I hadn’t done it (no idea why) and I decided to “treat him” the other night as we have been off the rails sexually for a little while (kids, schedules etc)


I did it. He walked in and looked a little annoyed but sat next to me so I continued. But nothing. He wasn’t turned on at all 😭😭

Awkward words and we went to sleep but I feel horrible 😭. Feeling unattractive and foolish 😭. How do I feel better about the rejection thing??