Yea. Not ready for this baby at all. Not ready for the c-section, not ready for the recovery, none of it. 😩

Everyday I remember something from when I had my daughter and it makes me have a meltdown 😣😅 tonight it was when they push your stomach all the freaking time after delivering. God I wanted to scream at that nurse so badly for it when I had my daughter. So painful. 😩 the other day it was realizing I have to get an epidural again. 😩 Baby comes in 9 weeks and I’m not mentally ready for this at all 😭😭