So today was our so called 8 year anniversary. I'm currently staying with my parents because we just got a duplex rental and updates need to be made before our 17 month old and I can move in. I am also 35 weeks pregnant.

I went over to have a meal with him and celebrate. We started talking about how I got pregnant while on birth control and he said it was my fault because I never want him to "pull out" which isn't true. I wasn't ready for another baby because he did very little when I gave birth the first time. He then said "well nobody else likes to pull out", and I said well if everyone jumps off a bridge are you going to do it too? He got quiet and upset. I asked what was wrong with him he said, "oh you know!" He believes that my response to what he said is implying that multiple men have ejaculated in me while on birth control and that I've been cheating all of these 8 years. He denied that he is the father of our 17 month old and the one that I'm currently pregnant with.

He began to accuse me (which isn't new to me unfortunately) of EVERYTHING under the sun. He believes I have affairs at my job, while he was visiting his family in FL I apparently was "passing out pussy", and asking any random man if they wanted to sleep with me. He called me a whore, a lying bitch, and I need to find my real baby daddy. He then asked me about an accusation he made against me 8 years ago saying he heard a male's voice in the background while I was driving home and if I didn't tell him who it was there would be hell to pay. He then put his hand around my throat. He slung me around the house, I cried, begging him to stop. I didn't deserve it. I've been completely faithful this entire time and I've been an idiot for staying this long. He said I've ruined his life for 8 years and he doesn't want me just like no one else does. According to him, all men do to me is "fuck and dump me". That's all I'm worth. He's white and I'm black and he SWEARS all I want is a black man. He is obsessed with thinking I want a black man. 😢

He refused to let me leave, ripped my purse off my shoulder and broke it, snatched my wig off and threw it down the hallway, threw me up against the walls several times. All I did was beg him to stop and not hurt me or the baby. He slapped me multiple times. I now have bruises forming on my arm. My face is sore and my back hurts. He kept telling me to admit it and he would leave me alone, but there is nothing for me to admit. I did not do any of the things he's accusing me of. I have put up with SO MUCH from him, he does drugs, drinks all of the time and blows all of the money. He's put his hands on me before and accused me of cheating this entire relationship.

I finally got out of there and came back to my parent's house. He called begging me to come back but I refused! He says he's sorry and he loves me. But I know he doesn't.