12 dpo and today marks an year to my miscarriage 😔

This month marks an year of TTC after my

Missed miscarriage last August. This month it’s hurting a lot more to see negative tests. It’s an year and I couldn’t get pregnant again. Almost feel like I failed at this. Tests are 12dpo today. The bottom photo has 12 dpo test from today FMU. Do you ladies see anything here? How did you divert your mind with this pain?