This sucks

I’m 22 and ttc is so hard for me and idk why. It’s going on two years now and still nothing. No chemical pregnancy, no miscarriage, absolutely nothing. Each month I try to fight the urge to symptom spot, yet I always do like a fool. There must be something wrong with me. I honestly want to give up, but I want this so bad. I try not to lose hope, but each cycle that goes by with no luck seems to put me in deeper depression each time. I wish ttc was as easy as people make it out to seem. Everybody’s always talking about how they don’t want kids and are doing everything they can to not end up pregnant, not knowing that some people are trying all they can and still aren’t getting pregnant. I’m just so tired of being disappointed in myself.

RANT OVER.