I literally feel like such a failure. All my life I really struggled in school because I suffered from depression and hospitalizations. I graduated with almost a 4.0 but I really didn’t want to go to college. I moved to San Diego for alittle and worked restaurant management positions. Then I got pregnant with my daughter and my boyfriend and I moved to Arizona to be close to my dad. We both got good jobs and moved into our own place. Then 9 months ago I got pregnant with my second baby. A few months later the pandemic took over our lives and yes both my boyfriend I still had our jobs but it was less hours and less money. We decided to move into my mom who lives across the country . Now it’s just a shit show. My boyfriend got a new job but it’s barley part time. I can’t work because I’m due to give birth any day now. My parents are constantly pressuring me to go to school. To do something that will provide even if I don’t really like it. So I applied to nursing school. I went to community college on and off and my gpa doesn’t meet the minimum gpa to get in. I hate myself so much. I was letting my personal live interfere with my schooling and I was too worried about making money for my kids to really focus on school but now I feel like I fucked up. I should of not been selfish and just did something right out of high school like everyone else. Now I’m probably not gonna get into nursing school, my parents see me as a teen mom failure who can’t make up her mind on anything she wants to do in life. I’m so afraid we are gonna run out of money. I already think I’m a bad mom. I have no friends and I’m so overwhelmed. I’m just so lost at this point. Thanks for reading...sorry if there are typos I’m writing this while crying.