First of all, I want to say I am truly sorry to anyone who saw my last post. It was never my intention to worry anyone. I was in a very dark place and saw no way out. I did intend to end thing and then that night Madeleine got very sick. She was in and out of the hospital for a week with rashes, fever, weight loss, and breathing problems with no real diagnosis. Seeing how much she needed me and how much I needed her, I couldn't go through with my plans. She's doing much better now!

My husband and I talked. The reason he couldn't help with my depression and burn out was because he was silently going through his own. We've agreed to talk to someone outside of the marriage for help. We both have a problem with feeling guilty for spending money on ourselves but what good is a new house if we aren't around to be in it?! I've recently gotten closer to God and discovered IKEA. I see light and debt at the end of the tunnel.

Again, I want to apologize to anyone I've worried. I'm so sorry. I've missed so many of you and I hope you and your LO's are all doing well. You're all amazing people and I feel so blessed to call you friends. 💛