What is going on with me.

Question

I have a 15 month old... so I know I’m too late in the game to experience postpartum depression. 
I’ve been feeling so off these past couple of months. My husband has low T and low Libido so there hasn’t been sex since early June... I think that’s the source of why I’m feeling so depressed and experiencing mood swings and crying so easily. I still please myself and get very touched out with that and with snuggling sometimes. I get so upset and frustrated in different situations that I just cry. But I also know that’s not the entire reason for my current state. I’m just not happy with myself and my life right now and that hurts me so much. I love my baby girl. I love my husband  I’ve had off and on help. But the cloud still lingers. She’s breastfeeding still which I always wanted to do. I’m so tired. I try to be happy and I am happy sometimes then my husndand will say something and I say something’s negative... I don’t know how to turn it off. So much is coming up for me. 
Has anyone experienced this or can shed some light on this.  I feel like a horrible mom and wife. I don’t know what to do

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You can still talk to someone about postpartum depression, or depression in general. I don’t know where you live, but the anxiety about covid right now is hitting a lot of people really hard, too. If you aren’t getting enough sleep, that can make things even harder. Are you getting any rest?

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I think its more of stress and the anxiety? I know I am just like you, one wrong word/move by hubby and i would be so toxic 😭😭. I heard depression is more of you not wanting to live/want to hurt someone or just simply dont care. From the sound of it i think you really still love your life, just tired and upset and experiencing everything new is like a whirlwind hitting u in the face. We are all in this together. My friend was like this too and she said once she is off breastfeeding her hormone is back to normal. So let’s push on just a bit more 😇😇

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Is she your first baby? It’s really tough on your relationship and emotions. I’m on my third and it’s exactly the same. I never feel me until they are older! X

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Hello, do you have a loved one you can talk to about this? Do you feel comfortable to talk to a doctor about this? It sounds like you very much deserve to feel loved and happy. Want you to get some tools in your toolbox to help you get there. I really think you are not alone and this is so common and you deserve a better way of life. Best wishes and hugs.

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Sounds like you could have general depression. No shame in that at all. Try to find a therapist. And talk to your doctor, maybe they can start you on an antidepressant.

What is going on with me.

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