Pregnant girl venting

I’m so mad I just need to vent.. it’s been a long day sometimes I feel like I blow shit out of proportion ? Is that the word? Being told u can’t react or have certain emotions because your husband is sensitive sucks it’s like I have to numb my self and just knod and agree and not complain be perfect stay home watch the kids drown in stress no matter what take it all in because I don’t work I’m a home maker. Agree to it all at this point I feel like I don’t even have the right to spend I don’t work so I can’t provide for my self so how would I even spend something I don’t have.. I really just don’t wanna see anyone talk to anyone be home with the kids sleep in go to sleep early be left alone not pick up phone calls.. I’m 6 weeks pregnant too and I’m not even feeling it. I’m depressed I cry when everyone sleeps I feel like I’m suffocating I feel like I’m drowning holding my breath. Just really needed to vent . I feel so broken and I can’t even express it to anyone with out making him feel bad