Okay guys. I need some advice. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and a half. I’ve been through some really rough relationships (cheated on, physically, mentally, and verbally abused, and so much more). I struggle to trust anyone. There’s days that I’m just off and my emotions are sky high - I just can’t control myself on those days. We are on vacation right now. Yesterday I was having one of those days. I was on my phone messaging my friend back home and he was trying to get my attention. I told him to hang on but he just kept bugging me and I got mad. Little did I know he was going to propose. He knew I was trying to help my friend with something. He walked away shaking his head leaving me behind. Turned around. Shoved the ring down my shirt and told me to shove it up my ass. Truly. I have no clue what to do. Sooo many people tell me that our relationship is toxic and I’m just struggling so much. (There’s so much more to our relationship too.)

- it’s hard to leave because I was supposed to have a child with him but I miscarried