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Hey guys,

(I’m sorry if Im posting in the wrong groups) so I had just recently lost a friend to suicide. It’s been a while since him and I have spoken last, and I’m taking it so hard. I’m going through a roller coaster of emotions (I found out 8/13). Today I woke up crying, yesterday it felt like it didn’t happen, the day I found out I was in so much shock and pain. Does anyone have any advice to get through this? I’ve never lost anyone to suicide before and I just feel like I possibly could’ve helped him realize his worth. He was a weird (not in a bad way), funny, cute, cuddly, sweet, caring person and not many noticed that in school and made fun of him. I don’t know why he decided to end it nor do I know how. I just really miss him and I know I’ll never be able to see him in this lifetime. I am planning on making a gofundme or something to give to his family, because it’s so hard losing a child, I can’t imagine how it feels to lose an 18 year old child to suicide.