12 DPO and 3 months post-Varicocele repair

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I’m 12 DPO, tired with back pain and sore breasts. I was too lazy to get a cup (I usually dip test with morning urine in a cup). I held it under a very little stream of urine not even 5 seconds.

We’ve been trying for a while now, and after countless big fat negatives, and 3 months post husband’s Varicocele repair surgery, I’m not sure if I should believe 😔 but I’ve never ever ever had any sort of faint line! It’s always a stark white BFN...

Could it be just an indent line?? I want to be happy but too scared to get my hopes up! Anyone with a similar story???? Please please share I’m so nervous! Thank you in advance 💕