He Broke My Heart

was with my first love for almost 3 years. Everything seemed fine. We went up to his cottage, sex was good, I put so much love and thought into his b day gifts. Then in the matter of a few weeks things changed. He’s always had depression off and on and calls it “waves” he told me his depression was bad right now. He said that because of that he wasn’t a good bf and didn’t want a relationship. He had me and my family believing that was why. He became meaner and more iterated u could say? I noticed he was coming over less as well. He continued to tell me he was tired from work etc. We ended things confusingly. He told me he loved me and didn’t want to break up but didn’t want a relationship because he’s never happy so called depression. He said he’d take time to think week and a half goes by and he takes all our pictures off Instagram. I call him and asked him if he had lost feelings for me and he said “I guess so.” I asked how or why and he said “I just wasn’t feeling it anymore.” I hung up. That was 2 days ago. The past couple weeks having him neglect me and ignore me was heart breaking. Our relationship was good and I really loved him. I feel like he used the depression as an easy way out w out jus telling me how he really felt. Now I just feel stupid. Advice?