I think my boyfriend r**** me

TW. Last night me and my boyfriend were laying down and talking and than he started getting handsy and i said i didn’t want to do anything but he continued and he knows i like dominance and cnc so whenever i act like that he just ignores it but i honestly really just wanted to talk cause we don’t get a lot of time to do that. then i got up and he said come back and i left and went to the bathroom and i came back and walked up to me and choked me (i like choking) and made me suck him off the threw me over the bed and slapped my ass then made me lay down and he stuck his fingers in my ass and i’ve told him that it hurts and i don’t like it and the night before i was bleeding when he did it but he continued even when i was crying because he said i needed to be punished. then he made me ride him and was slapping me and called me the n word with the hard r (i’m black hes white) and he used a dildo on me that i told him once was to big and hurts and he pushed it all the way inside of me. he said that he liked seeing me in pain. after he came and we were laying in bed he said he didn’t like any of that and he feels really bad and he’s sorry. we are into light bdsm stuff but that was the first time it was that extreme and it’s kinda quiet between the two of us and idk what to do