advice PLEASE 💓

hi guys,

so i’ve been talking to this guy for a few weeks & i decided to lose my virginity to him. the first time we had sex without a condom (which i shouldn’t have) & then with & the first time was just overall uncomfortable since it was my first time. i saw him again today & i can’t seem to get into it even if he does some foreplay. he wanted to have sex again but he didn’t have condoms AGAIN. i couldn’t help but to think where the other condoms went if we had sex not too long ago which is also why I chose not to continue having sex with him. he is also 13 years older than me with 5 kids (the kids live in another state). i just need some advice please!