How did I get here 🤦🏼‍♀️

So Sunday my best friend cane over to my new apartment to hang out and paint, we are both artist.

I somehow put off an energy to men that says “fuck me” with out trying and my best friend is waiting till marriage, so I thought I’d be okay, right?

WRONG

We decided to sit on my bed and catch up and started goofing around and wrestling, mostly cause he took my blanket and I kept trying to get it back, when suddenly he started nuzzling into my neck. I’m like ummm dude what are you doing and he started to kiss me.

We had done some things before we became close friends and I didn’t expect it to happen again.

We ended up making out and I sucked him off and he said “next time let’s just paint”

Like I seduced him?? I honestly didn’t do anything remotely sexual

He kept asking if I was okay with doing stuff but the issue is, the main issue, is he acts like I’m trying to seduce him and take his v card and he constantly asked after I’m clean. I am btw.

I understand the concern but I honestly have no interest in sex with him, or anyone at this point in my life. I honestly just wanted to hang out, that all I still want, but now he’s avoiding me.

EFIT: the last time we did anything sexual was October when we first met. After we became close we agreed to just be friends. What happened Sunday shocked me and confused me a lit, especially because he told me I had planned it, when I hadn’t even thought about it.

EDIT:

WE HAVE NEVER HAD SEX.

I have him one blow job in October and then Sunday it happened again.

With the “fuck me” energy I simply mean that no matter what guy I’m talking to and working with or anything, they always try to get in my pants.

My guy friend is still a Virgin as well.

EDIT:

We originally met on tinder with the idea of possibly dating. We did some things, gave eachother head, and decided we would be better friends. That was a year ago in October. We became very close and havnt talked about anything sexual, in fact I just got out of a relationship a few months ago. I always invite my friends into my room, so be never thought anything of it, especially because my art supplies are there and I planned to paint.

Just because we did stuff A YEAR AGO does not mean he had any right to assume I wanted to do stuff again.