(Not sure where to post this so sorry)

Just so stressed out right now and crying. Im worried about my kids so I guess that why I'm posting here but I also have no one to cry to so I'm posting to you ladies.

My relationship is falling apart, I told him how I feel about us falling apart and he withdrew more. All I've done is try to show him love...to love on him...and yet he's drawing away. I'll probably be single very very soon. We grew up together. I thought he was different. And I let him meet my kids. I don't let people meet my kids. I feel like an idiot now.

The main stressor I have is this... I'm so afraid to get a notice soon that I have to pay an amount I don't have or move out in 10 days. I'm behind. Medical bills (therapy and meds - I have BPD and previous suicide attempts) are always piling up. All I can think of as I sit here is that I'll have to live out of a storage garage temporarily. I'll lose my kids. They can't live like that. What kind of a mother am I? 😔 I feel like the worst one. Sure... I recently got sober from my addiction but now this makes it seem... ugh idk... I try to be better for my kids and I'm failing. They are 9 and 6. They are smart and I don't want them to have to deal with me being homeless. Idk what to do yall. How do I explain my homelessness to the kids? 💔

Edit: another friend convinced me to make a gofundme for help and post it to a group we are in. Most of them in the group are my friends. I got my back bills covered and food coming my way from very generous people. I offered to pay them all back one day but so far no one has wanted that. They just want me to pay it forward when I can. I'm so thankful and was crying from their kindness. There are still good people out there 💜