I just broke down in tears while trying to soothe my two month old to sleep. I know shes tired but she's fighting it. My whole family is sleeping while I'm trying to keep quiet and not wake my husband up who works 12 hours a day. The stress really hasn't hit me until tonight we've been adjusting to our new routine but lately I feel as if my job is never ending and my husband gets a break. I feel jealous that he gets to go back to work and sleep all night. I hate that he only holds our baby for a little and gives her back right away! I can't even take a shower without him giving me ugly looks because he has to watch her. I miss my long relaxing showers. I miss my sleep. I know we are blessed and I shouldn't be complaining but a mom needs a break! Being a mom is such a hard job keeping yourself mentally healthy. I know if it were the other way around and I was working my huband would never survive. I keep telling myself that woman are built strong for a reason. Thanks for letting me vent.