This is about my relationship with my boyfriend... I’m so upset & have no one to talk to I wrote this in my notes it’s how I express myself because he doesn’t listen to me ...

You’re never going to care about me , you over power me in everything because I let you , you’ll never seen the value in me even though you seen everything about me you think I’m no good I don’t know why you’re with me if I don’t even make you happy I try to love you but I don’t even get love back that hurts me the most. I thought I gave you my all you seen me at times where I didn’t even want to be alive & you just recorded laughing & told me to do it. if I valued myself we wouldn’t even be together. I cry every other day because I want to be loved , I’m not where I need to be , I don’t get any type of encouragement from you or anyone that “loves” me. Today you seen me crying in bed you just walked by didn’t say a word to me do you know how that makes me feel? Makes me want to vanish I’m getting used to not being wanted by you, I swear I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t have my baby . I want to go I want my mom & dad I miss them so much but I’m here for My baby & baby otw. You’ll never even see this message because you don’t care to check my phone but if you do happen to you’ll just ignore it. You yell at me everyday I’m not happy I haven’t been for the past 3 years . I crying to be loved from you but you just make me feel worse I wish I had someone that cared I’m sick of getting yelled I feel like I’m being punished for every little thing I ever did wrong. I can’t wait around to be saved I have to save myself. I haven’t been thinking of the past but i want you really think about it that shit should hurt you too I really do love you but you seem to not love me . You honestly treat me so bad I wish you could see it 💔 I’m so broken from your words no has ever said things to me like you have . I wish you loved & cared about me I thought you was so perfect for me in the beginning but now I’m just not someone you want after you seen all my flaws that’s when you started being mean to me I feel so dumb for letting you have the power over me like you do I let you in because I love you & care about you so much I wanted to be your everything but I’m nothing to you 💯 how will I be your wife if you disrespect me the way you do because NONE OF ITS TRUE YOU DONT WANT ME . You wouldn’t treat the girl you loved like this matter of fact I’m the ONLY PERSON you treat like this I’m so hurt by it I really am I trusted you so much but now I lost my best friend we used to laugh together and have good times it’s all fighting & crying for me you never cry because I don’t hurt you to the point where you don’t want to be dead. I wished you see how much pain I carry around with me EVERY single day maybe that’ll change your outlook on me.

You told my my feelings didn’t matter I can only blame myself you went behind my back & did things you knew were wrong all because I checked I’m dumb , an idiot I’m am discussing for seeing for myself what you was up to . You told me our relationship is being forced you say the meanest things to me I am heart broken you once treated me good but now I cry wondering why I am not good enough . I really feel numb what’s the point of trying to be happy when my little bit of happiness gets taken from me by a few words .