Feel like giving up...

I needed to just get this off my chest as I know half the women here will understand. But I just feel so low. Been ttc for a year now and after having a miscarriage last year I’m just starting to feel like having a baby isn’t in my future. My periods are all over the place so trying to track ovulation is really hard. Every month I get what I think are signs & symptoms and I just get a BFN. I thought this was my month for sure... been so tired and exhausted. Breakout, tender boobs, the works...and then gone to toilet this morning and I’ve had (sorry if this tmi) dark brown discharge when I wipe. AF isn’t even due for another 5 days and I just know if I take a test it’ll be negative. She’s just decided to dash my dreams a few days earlier this month. I’m sure I’ll be okay in a few days and back to BD but just feeling abit crappy today. And needed to voice it.