The most awkward moment with my husband 😂

So we had a baby a week ago and I had tear and stitches... it’s been hurting like crazy especially since yesterday when I may have strained myself from trying to open my bowel lol. Today I told my husband that I was in pain and I described how I felt... my husband got some warm water and wash cloth and insisted on giving me a massage down below to relief the pain and help it heal... I thought to myself “is he crazy?!”... he still insisted and I allowed him... all I could think about while he was giving me the massage below was “OMG can he smell the dried blood?”, “I can imagine how disgusting it looks down there”, “is it smelling?” “should my husband be seeing me like this? What if he gets put off”... to be honest, so many thoughts ran through my mind 😂 because I felt like my down there looks disgusting and smells... to my surprise, my husband said “I have never seen you this beautiful. You pushed out two of my children and I would be grateful for the rest of my life”. Damn I started crying