I was 7 weeks and 5 days pregnant but unfortunately, it was revealed an ectopic pregnancy last week. Though this pregnancy was very unexpected and I was still indifferent on my decision... my emotions are at an ultimate high of sadness/tearfulness. Currently going through the methotrexate procedure - the side effects/pain have taken a detrimental toll on me. I’m feeling grief and so much hurt just thinking about the lost of my baby. I feel so alone. My mum; who I am quite close to doesn’t even know... saddens me I have yet to reveal this information - I guess I’m afraid of the disappointment (I’m 24 years old btw). I’ve been having suicidal thoughts too... I pray for healing... doesn’t help that the guy who impregnated me - we have the most unusual relationship - we’re on and off constantly and he isn’t comforting during my breakdowns and crying. Kind of insensitive too. I know God has a purpose for everything and I’m lucky to be alive - this could have gone very badly. A part of me wishes I could have saved him or her...which had no chance. Just came here to share and vent my story. Hope you all are staying safe and well.