My ivf experience...am i crazy?

After using this app for the last 6 years I have never posted. I have always used this for fertility tracking and to read some positive stories to help with those down moments from not conceiving. So a little background before I dive in to my rant.

My husband and I have been together for 11 years. We wanted to get settled in our career before starting a family. Thought once we are settled everything else would be easy. Well life throws wrenches in those carefully thought out plans. After trying for a baby the last 6 years we finally got a good insurance plan that would give us the ability to see a specialist and figure out what's wrong.

Our journey through fertility treatments started in November of 2019. Did all the testing and all our labs came back great. So the doctor said we need to do a lap surgery to see whats truly going on. Well covid happened and my surgery got pushed back till may. May of this year I had a lap done and it came back stage 4 endometriosis and 2 blocked tubes. They were able to unblock my tubes clean out the endometriosis, but my doctor still stated to go the IVF route because of the severity of the endometriosis. So I of course agree. Now we get to the route of why I am annoyed and wondering if I am crazy or overreacting.

July I was suppose to start my first retrieval cycle. Well my

IVF nurse and insurance were not on the same page and I needed day 3 labs again which I missed from lack of communication. Well she only had about a week notice to get my paper work together and knowing insurance can take some time I chucked it but to being nothing we could have done and just moved on to hoping the process would be more organized next go around. So August comes and I am praying to start my period to get those labs done (never in my life did I think I would pray for my period lol). August 22th rolls around and I get my period yay!!! Get my labs done that Monday and start the birthcontrol as was explained to me to do the month before. I email my nurse and tell her I started so we can set up my retrieval schedule. This was a Saturday so I know she is not going to respond over the weekend. I wait all day Monday no responce. So Tuesday a bit annoyed I call her. She said yes I got your email i will email the calander today and call in your prescriptions. So at this pointed I am a bit frustrated. As emotial of a journey as this is I feel like a simple email back saying I got your email I will get back to you would have been a better route for her but I felt like I had to hunt her down like a crazy women. That aside I called the pharmacy to make sure they got my rx order. They did not. Thinking okay Melissa take a chill pill ur just getting anxious, give them a few days i let it go. Now its monday again a week later and I have heard nothing so I call the pharmacy and they have nothing on my file. What!!!!! Fumming and walking back and forth in the house like a crazy women i email my nurse asking again whats going on. I have my first apt Thursday and am suppose to start injections the following Monday if this gets pushed back anymore i may loose it i am not getting any younger and I feel like I am getting ignored or placed on a back burner. Well about 4 hours later she reaches out and says she will look into it. Annoyed I contact the billing/insurance lady with a strongly worded email. Then amazingly about a half hour later pharmacy calls me and said they just recieved my order but some paper work was missing for insurance approval so they faxed the request to the office. Ooo boy here I go again my anxiety is through the roof. Call the office and they said 2 to 3 business days and it should be worked out. This process is so hard. Emotions are everywhere but I feel like I should not have to be pulling my teeth out to get the pieces lined up. This is what they do its their specialty and I feel like they could care less. Now that I have calmed down (granted my medication order is not fixed yet) I can't help but feel like I am going crazy. And I being irrational in my expectations and need to calm down. I am lucky to have insurance coverage but they only will cover 3 cycles and I am starting to think I chose the wrong clinic. Any advice or words of wisdom would be greatly welcome.