Ranting + need advice

How do you leave someone you love?

My boyfriend of 2 years seems to still not trust me, although he says he’s working on it. He’s jealous, he (tries) to be controlling, he definitely gas lights me, and none of my friends or family like him. I don’t feel like me anymore, and I think he is the reason.

But I’m terrified of being heart broken, and I don’t want to hurt him, although I feel hurt by him a lot, as he puts me down. But when I call him out on putting me down, he makes out like I’m the crazy one and gets mad at me. Egg shells everywhere.

I feel so lost and heart broken, and I wish he would change. But I also know another women would probably not put up with this

When we’re good, we’re so good. Even best friends, but he gets angry a lot - sometimes I feel like he even enjoys being mad at me. I consider myself an empathetic and kind person, I don’t know why he treats he badly sometimes. And it’s not always! But he will do little things, often

Any advice? Or even someone who can just relate to this? I feel confused 🤷‍♀️