I’ve been struggling with this for a very long time and I wish it would just go away. At the beginning of my relationship my boyfriend had a problem with watching porn and liking dirty pictures and videos on Instagram. When I would see these things that he liked or even thought about him liking these things I would get so sad and just lay there and tense up and start crying. It made me want to crawl out of my skin and I was restless like I couldn’t stop moving. He has stopped doing that stuff, but it was a very hard time in my life that caused depression for a while and just more problems.

This part is gonna sound stupid for most people but when he watches movies now or listens to rap etc I get those same uneasy feelings and I want to cry and I feel like I’m going to crawl out of my skin. And one time he asked me if he could re download Instagram so he could text his cousin, I had some sort of a panic attack/ ptsd moment and just burst out into tears and I couldn’t breath.

I hate feeling like this when silly things happen. I hate the fact that just thinking about him listening to rap, watching movies that potentially have bad things in it, or him going on certain social media accounts will send me in to a state of sadness and hurt. And I don’t want to feel like this over stupid things. If someone could please give me advice or just talk with me about it then that will be helpful. I’ve tried everything and this is just a last resort kinda thing.