Here’s my infertility struggle .. I was on the pill for 5 -6 years. Now, I’m Married and my husband and I have been trying for the last 8 months ... I see my niece and nephew growing up so fast and I want to give them cousins... I had my first ovarian cyst in July.. I guess thats normal.. I don’t have any medical problems.. my cycles have been 30-31 days, but my last cycle started at 26days. I’m now on day 20 and I have no idea when I’ll even start my period.. as of now I’m so calm.. I don’t want to get my hopes up every month. For some reason after ovulation I’m always having mild cramps and lower back pain until I actually start a new cycle. I’m sick of stressing myself out over implantation symptoms and just PMSING.. I’m sick of always having anxiety during the day because I feel cramps. I sick of the though “ I could be”. I just want to be pregnant. I know “it’ll happen. “ I just feel like my family doesn’t really know what it’s like and what I’m truly going through. I feel so down and kinda neutral.. very much out of it. Maybe depressed and worn out but just blah.. I’m struggling with all of this more and more each month .. I’ve been feeling tired and worn out, not really an appetite right now.