I just got the worse news yesterday and i dont honestly know how to even process it....

My husband and I have been separated the last 3-4 months, however recently weve decided to work on things. Before we started having sex again we had both been tested. However he wasnt aware that a regular STD screening doesnt involve Herpes, HIV and AIDs... so he went and got tested again because he was having some symptoms, well he got a call from the pharmacy saying he had a medication ready but he couldn’t remember the name but the place he was tested never called him back so he had to call them. Later he text me that he was positive for herpes (both types). We have recently had sex and it was protected until the condom broke. The last time i was fully tested was back in early july or end of june and i was negative for all. So whenever he was exposed was between then and end of july. We started having sex again at the end july but he was under the impression he was negative...so im currently at my dr now waiting in the waiting room and i think my mind is finally trying to think things through...he was very down and depressed yesterday. He apologized and hates that it had to come to this for him to realize how hes taken me for granted. Weve known eachother since we was seniors in high school and married almost 4 years. But weve delt with infidelity from him. We have 2 babies under 3. This last time we separated i came to terms with it. I missed him of course and it was the same for him. When he told me i cant even say i was or am angry at him bc even though he was getting tested i knew he had been with other people and i have too but ive tested negative each time.. it finally felt like our marriage was going in a different direction but now i dont know where well be next. Honestly i feel like i will be positive because of our history and recent encounters. But if im not its like what do i do....regardless hes still my friend and this is hard for him and i dont wanna push him away. I know the disease isnt a death sentence and its managed with medicine. My mind is everywhere. Ive spent the last few months angry at him for the things that led to our separation (non infidelity) that i feel like i just dont have it in me to be mad at the world again. I dont really know if im looking for advice..i guess its just a vent. I havent told anybody ive only talked to him..