Depression in first trimester

Amber

I was so happy when I seen my positive test results!! So happy I cried. Then the doctors started transitioning me from lexapro to Zoloft, told me I can’t take my klonopin for anxiety anymore, plus I get sick at night (emetaphobic here) so I don’t sleep much at all. I had bad postpartum depression after I had my son who is now 9. I’m so down and depressed. I feel like I should be so so happy. My parents recently passed away too. Anyone else depressed and deal with anxiety?