No one thinks they’ll need to buy an urn

I got my babies urn yesterday and I didn’t feel how i thought I’d feel. I thought I’d feel weak, break down and cry. I didn’t feel much when I opened it. We got this from Etsy and I was really excited to get it. I’ve been waiting for it for over a month. I don’t HATE it but I don’t really like it. Is it because it’s an urn? And nothing would be good enough for my babies? I looked at it today and I did like it a little more. Maybe it has to grow on me. Anyone else feel like this? I bought a personalized urn because I wanted something special for my babies. Now that I got it, it doesn’t seem special at all. I hope I learn to like it ....