my boyfriend of 8 montns cheated on me

last night i was already having a rough night and was crying a lot after dealing with my mom. then i was talking to his best friend about worries i had about our relationship and he told me his friend had something to tell me

i feel so hurt because i remember i saw her name on his phone a few months ago and i asked who it was but i mispronounced it so he just laughed at the way i said it. but i trusted him so i didn’t do anything. and to find out he cheated on me like last week and then had the nerve to act like he didn’t do anything i just believed him and thought he was busy with his new business and college but he was as busy cheating on me. and i just cannot believe he would do this to me like he would’ve been the last person and it’s such a coincidence cause before this i was already staring to lose

some feelings but i didn’t think idk guys i’m really hurt. i know i have trust issues like i don’t even wanna talk to anybody new like he pursued me and ig he lied when he said he was in love with me. i just don’t understand guys i’m trying hard not to cry cause i already cried a bunch last night. i remember he would always be lowkey weirdly jealous about guys and i never understood it but it’s because he was scared i would do what he would to me to him. it’s so heartbreaking he saw me in ways no other guy did and i rarely dare people at that. he helped my brother with his computer, my mom wanted to help support his business and we all cared about him. i tried to help him with his moms relationship and make her feel special i made her chocolate covered strawberries. i searched all over for these japanese chocolate biscuits he had when he was younger and i wanted to surprise him because he wasn’t having a good week. i always denied temptations and watched how i acted around other guys but he still did it. i’m in such shock guys idk i’m going to confront him today about it tho.