Angry

My son gained his wings August 16 3 weeks after he was born I miss him so much and I feel cheated to make it to 35 weeks have him and then he passed away I love him so much I dont understand why god took my baby boy I would do anything to go back in time and change how things turn out I love him so much and I wanted him we all wanted him I'm so angry and hurt and destroyed I dont know how I'm supposed to continue to live life and be the mom I was before all of this i dont even feel like me and I'm so angry with god why would he take my baby I'm a good person a good mom his sister was waiting for him his dad was waiting for him we have so much love for him he was supposed to be a momma boy but god had other plan I'm trying my hardest to accept this but its so hard and idk how to move forward how can I ever b ok again