No point in going anon. Okay so, 5 years ago my sisters grandmother died on my 19th birthday.

It devastated my sister. She wasn’t ready to talk about it until years later.

The day before my 24th birthday my grandma died and all I wanted to do was talk to my sister but she was completely MIA. I had plently of people to talk to but wanted HER. My sister knew she was passing, hospice is really good at predicting how long someone has so she knew. We had been talking about it.

And I pushed it down and told myself that I understood my sister, and i still do. Because it was the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> of her grandmas passing. I told her that i needed to talk and that my grandma passed: no response. So I sent her a sweet message telling her that if she needed me she could call me but what I didn’t say is that I needed her. I needed to talk to her so bad. No response until 2 days later. And at that point I was like 😐

Try to cut my some slack okay, I just lost my grandmother and my emotions are everywhere and I’m grieving and I’m currently extremely sick right now. Im emotional.

I’m feeling resentment, and I know that’s probably wrong. I need to know if I need to cut her some major slack because her grandma also died 5 years ago at the same time and she still may be grieving as deeply as I am about mine. Nobody can help that.

I just needed my sister and I just bursted out into tears about it because I’ve been holding it in so obviously I need to talk about it. But I’m not gonna talk about it with her! I don’t even know if my emotions or feelings are valid. I don’t want to make her feel bad. She lost her grandma too and it doesn’t matter how long ago it was.

I just feel so rotten for feeling this way Jesus Christ. Grief is so weird and affects so many different things. To be clear, I’m not pissed off or angry I’m just hurt and that hurt May be projecting itself onto other things? Any advice would help.

Forgot to add: we have different moms. So different grandmas too.