I should be 20 weeks and a day right now. But I'm not. I don't know how to go about my life. Nothing feels right. My blighted ovum was confirmed at 10 weeks, and my D&C was done on July 17th, exactly 12 weeks, and I feel so stupid. I never got to see my baby, I never heard a heart beat, all I was given was a view of an empty sac. I feel like I don't deserve to as upset as I am, like I don't have a right to be depressed still. I think about my baby every day, multiple times a day, and I feel myself wanting to cry at the drop of a hat over nothing at all, the hormones have returned to normal, but I'm so emotional still. It feels like expected to be over it and back to normal but I can't, my co workers and boss act as though it never happened, asking me why I've become so quite in the recent months. I became pregnant when I was hired, I'm almost certain it was the same day, so the entire time I've worked there I was pregnant, then I was miscarrying, then I was in surgery and on recovery, but now it feels as though I'm expected to pretend it never happened. I just feel so numb, I don't know what's right for me to be feeling anymore.