Lost it last night, like full body sob lost it. It was a series of overwhelming thoughts: what if we don’t make it to January, what if we do and something terrible happens, what if baby 2 strains our family and my marriage, what if something happens to my first born, how can I handle or forgive myself, why am I so big already?!?!??! Yea, I don’t know what brought it on but it was just so much anxiety of the unknown and the uncontrollable. I’m usually a really positive person! Anyway, just know you all are at alone if you trail off like I did last night.