hate my family

basically my whole family talks badly about eachother and it’s so draining to be apart of it, my mom tells me i shouldn’t trust my aunties and not to tell them anything, then my nanny was up (dads mom) and she was asking people to sanitise their hands and my mom was talking about how it’s her house and all and i don’t know what she means by that because shes only trying to keep my family safe ? and then my other nanny would talk badly about my mom to me aswell and i don’t really care like i try not to get involved. i’m 18 so i could leave, but i’d have no where to go, and i don’t think not speaking to my family is a good idea but i don’t really know