A little back story...

We have 2 sons. Our first we lost at 16 weeks and our second, now 15 months, we had to do fertility treatments to conceive. I had a rough pregnancy with my second. Lots of ultrasounds. Multiple hospital stays. Preterm labor. Short cervix. Anemia. Autoimmune flares. And a delivery at 32 weeks. But he was worth every second of all of it! My fertility specialist told us that the likelihood of us conceiving again on our own was low. I have PCOS, a rare autoimmune condition, hypothyroidism, and I’m SSA positive. My husband and I decided not to have me go back on birth control. I was breastfeeding and still am. We figured if it happened despite everything going against us, the baby was a blessing and meant to be!

Now, we are WANTING to have another baby! I miss being pregnant (and feel cheated that I didn’t get the ENTIRE pregnancy). There’s no time like the present, right? The plan was to contact my fertility specialist when we were ready for another baby but timing is not on our side because...

My husband is deploying very soon. This was the last cycle that we’d have a chance to get pregnant before he left. By some crazy chance, I started my cycle early and ovulated (I think) early. I have only spotted mid cycle on the times I actually ovulated and I fell pregnant before. I spotted pretty heavily this cycle. I also had a positive LH test to confirm. With my original cycle timeline, I wasn’t going to be able to test until after he left but now my period is due the day I drop him off to be quarantined before leaving. I can’t help but feel like these are the stars aligning for us. I wanted a 2 year age gap and IF this cycle works, the next baby will be due just shy of our son’s 2nd birthday! This also lines up perfectly with my husband being back with plenty of time before the baby would be due. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but that feels impossible! We are packing up our house (I’m moving home for the deployment) and my husband mentioned that I might be spending all this time packing my clothes only to have to pull the maternity clothes back out of the storage unit. I’d happily dig for that tote!

I guess I’m just writing this to make sure I haven’t lost my mind and there’s other people out there that want 2 barely under 2. Plus, I want to be able to look back on this, good or bad, because this excitement is too awesome of a feeling to forget!

**Picture of my rainbow baby below for attention! Can’t you see why I want a hundred more of him??