I've been dating this guy I've met online for two months. Before we officially met we would talk on the phone for hours, I mean from when he gets off from work at around 5PM or sometimes 10 until almost 6 in the morning. Conversations have been good. We would joke around, send funny videos, talk about goals, life and pretty much anything else you would talk about. After officially meeting him after our date I would come over to his place. I would stay over for weeks lol but because I didn't feel right just staying over his place almost everyday I told him I would come over on his off days instead. So when I wasn't over there we would talk over the phone after he would get off from work. When I was over at his place we would watch movies, watch anime, play video games and he would cook us meals. Just about 5 weeks ago he found out about a couple of family issues that were going on. He found out his grandmother had a stroke, so his mom bought him a plane ticket to come out to see her. At the point he was saying he didn't care if he was fired, even when his job had told him he wasn't allowed to leave out of state.The day before he left I was over at his place, I can tell as I was over there he was stressed out by this not too mention as a su chef his co workers constantly depend on him. We watched a movie to keep his mind of the situation and in the morning his sister came and picked him up. For a while we text a bit but as soon as he went out of state the text messages and calls dwindled. He even apologized beforehand if he ghosted for a week because he was spending time with family which I replied saying I understand. But I cant lie, I felt a tiny bit of annoyance that we weren't talking. I feel so bad for feeling that way but to go from talking and texting all the time to barely even saying goodmorning or goodnight ticked me off just a bit. Overall I gave him his space and only sent a check in text to make sure he's okay. Now that he's landed back in Cali the communication hasn't changed and now he's saying "WE NEED TO TALK" and that he's leaving Cali for a bit. I feel so bad because I'm upset but I can't help but to feel that way. My anxiety is going off the roof because my mind is coming up with so many scenarios. It's so sad because I'm thinking he might be doing something behind my back because he isn't communicating with me or he doesn't find me attractive even though he clearly said what was going on with his grandmother. He's been in a marriage where he was cheated on so I WOULD HOPE he wouldn't do that behind my back.Something in the back of my mind is telling me otherwise and I think that has something to do with my personal insecurities and a past relationship that lied to me. I'm meeting with him on sunday sense he needs to talk to me. I feel so damn selfish, I feel horrible that in a way I thinking he's lying....I feel bad that I'm coming up with dumb conclusions.