How do you deal? PTSD from the overwhelming loss

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Who else feels they are getting PTSD from testing? On a background of so much pregnany loss it feels every month will end in another loss.

I got a vvvvvv faint line a few days ago, this morning I felt nauseated and took an hour to work myself up the courage to test again. It was a little darker again which was reassuring, but I know the fear will be there again tomorrow.

How do you guys deal with the anxiety?