My ex boyfriend and I were together for almost 5 years. All throughout highschool. We know each other back to front. We are bestfriends.

We broke up around 3 months ago. We have been keeping in touch. Checking in on each other. And we are still having sex. Neither of us are talking to anyone new. And covid 19 has limited that alot.

And tbh. I know what im doing is all wrong. And in the long run. I know i will get hurt. Im being open with him in ways that were similar in our relationship. He broke up with me. And im still in love with him.

Not to say that I want to be in a relationship with him again. I have little to no hope that will happen. We still love eachother. I miss his company, not the relationship. Covid 19 means we cant see eachother alot. Uni is busy for both of us. And being alone all the time at home constantly has lead us to keep in contact more then i think we would have if covid didnt exhist.

I love him to the moon. I want him in my life regardless if we are in a relationship or not. How do I move on? Ive been taking the time so far to really work on myself. I dont want another boyfriend. I dont want to date. I want to be his bestfriend. Be there for him when he needs it.

He makes my life better. I dont want to get hurt.