is anyone more scared to have a second baby than they were to have the first ?

i had my first back in May. I wasn’t scared or nervous or anything I was just ready for whenever my baby was ready to come out. Now thinking about having another baby gives me so much anxiety. i’m scared to have another. thinking about the pp , the stitches , the staying up and just everything that came after makes me not want another 😫 even though i’d love another baby. does anyone else feel like that ??