Ok so I’m willing to admit, finally after years of unhealthy relationships that I need help. There’s something wrong with me and it’s not entirely my fault, but I still need to do something about it. Since I was 15 I’ve been in a few relationships. All of them involved sexual, physical, mental abuse and cheating. I never walked away because I felt like I was t good enough for anyone so they always broke up with me. I’m almost 25 now and I’m crazy. I’m the woman who will look at their social media activity to see if they’re ignoring me, I’ll check their snap score, and I’ll text over and over just so I can be reassured they still like me. This has ruined relationships with a lot of good men because I can’t just trust that they won’t hurt me. Well now I’m really in trouble. I met the one. He’s 32, a grown ass man who doesn’t play games and likes me for who I am and all of my insecurities and past issues. He always listens to me when I’m upset about something because of my past and he never leaves because I freak out about the little things because of my past. He’s absolutely wonderful, but how long can I expect him to stick around with the crazy. He’s older so he isn’t on his phone as much as me which is fine but the crazy in me hates it. I don’t want to be that woman who needs constant validation and attention. I’m always checking his social media even though I know he never ignores me. I want this to stop. I trust him with everything I have for the first time in my life and I don’t want my past to ruin it. I’m about to go see a therapist. I love him and I can’t loose him.