I have pcos and I’ve been taking metformin again since July 8th 2020 after I went back to my OB. I then started my period on July 9th which ended on July 13th which would have been my typical “birth control” period but I stopped a week before my appointment so it came a week early. After that period I’ve been trying to conceive my first child.. something I long for very much. I am 25 yrs old. I probably take a pregnancy test one a week just in case and we try probably once a week to conceive.. I haven’t had a period since then until 09/14/2020 at first I thought it was implantation bleeding as it was a different color than my normal period.. today is now 09/16/2020 and it got a bit more and is finally going onto a pad but not filling the pad... so I keep telling myself it’s a period... but the hardest part is knowing what my period was like off birth control last time... 3 week of period then 1 week off and it’s hard to think of what if I’m not ovulating or fertile if that starts to happen again... and I was so hopeful I had pregnancy symptoms, acid reflux, sore breast/nipples it hurt if anything rushed up against it.. I even made sure to have sex When the ovulation test was super positive... I hate to tell myself that this is a period.. and all I want to do is cry... I can’t imagine trying for so long and so many times getting your hopes up... it makes me wonder if I want to go through all that pain... I feel numb already...

Sorry to anyone who reads this this is all over the place :/