I struggled with this with my first pregnancy as well. This is my second. I have infertility issues and always wanted a big family. So I should be so excited right? Like I should be glowing....where is my glow?

I am almost 11 weeks and I am miserable. I am so exhausted now instead of barfing all day long I dry heave because I don't eat enough to barf as frequently as my body wants to. I had diarrhea then constipation and now hemorrhoids. I am so exhausted from chasing a toddler around all day and dry heaving. I have an autoimmune disease and it is flaring up and I can't sleep or get comfortable. My feet are already swollen because of it. I have had 4 yeast infection so far as well.

I know I am living my dream I am just in sense of doom of this is going to last another 7 months for me. I have no one to help with my son if I need anything as it is. Between COVID and my my mom just had a stroke I am feeling like there is no village.

I know this is all temporary just right now I am absolutely so miserable. I don't want to complain I am just exhausted as I am writing this I woke up just dry heaving again.

No one talks about the guilt associated with pregnancy especially with mom's with infertility issues. I know I am grateful I feel so guilty for writing this.