22 hours after my water breaking i finally gave birth to the love of my life 👶🏽💙

water broke around 120 am went into the hospital where they confirmed it was my water breaking. had a very difficult check due to baby being at a -2 and me being only 1 cm dilated. had some back cramps, but nothing too serious, i slept through that.

finally got upstairs around 11 to start on pitocin, which i was doing good with my contractions, until we got to the recheck i’m not really sure what time it was maybe around 3. i was so exhausted everything was a daze, i cried and cried, only being 3cm dilated and baby at a 0. decided to get an iv medication, everything was fine until my toco went from 80, which i was handling pretty damn good, to the 120s-130s at this point i was SCREAMING i wanted the epidural so bad. i sat through 2 of those contractions while getting the epidural, i was so focused on having the pain stop i sat still and just breathed through those. that was around 4, it kicked in lovely for my legs. but the catheter hurt SO much, i cried and begged for them to take it out. so they did and i got some more epidural i guess. i then had a little moment when i was rechecked only at 4cm, i didn’t understand why my body wasn’t doing it on its own, why i was barely progressing with the pitocin (they kept saying they need to be more aggressive with it and would push it up by 4 instead of the 2 they were doing it with). i was scared of getting a c section because they needed to put something (i don’t remember what it was called) but it was adding fluids back to the baby because he was so long with the water broken, and an internal monitor. i had to lay differently cause being on my back was making his heart rate drop and i was just so worried about him and i was so tired and out of it. they calmed me down and told me with an epidural, without one, vaginally, or through a c section, i’m still a strong mama, and that we’re going to be okay.

i then got an hour of sleep in before they put another, with numbing cream and i got another hour of sleep, around 6 is when i woke up and was in extreme pain because of it i was crying, screaming, sometimes letting it out feels better. from then i started to get that i need to poop feeling maybe around 930/10, i’m not sure where those 5 hours between the pain and pushing went, i know somewhere in between there i got more medicine through my epidural. i was shaking so much throughout this whole experience i was so cold and overwhelmed. all i do know is i was now 6-7 cm and what felt like 5 minutes to me, probably an hour in real time, i felt like i needed to push and i got checked again. i was finally at 10 cm!!! within 10 contractions my baby was out!!!! i was feeling all of it in my vagina, i knew right when my contractions were coming which really helped.

once he was out i was instantly in love, nothing else mattered. he is the most perfect thing i’ve ever seen.

it was not the best feeling or experience, but it is all worth it, i wouldn’t change anything for the world.