I WANNA FEEL HORNY AGAIN

So I’ve been in a relationship with my partner for just over a month, he lives fairly far from me so we haven’t had sex that many times, and when we do see eachother we tend to go out and do activities, eat and get a little tipsy! The only issue I’ve found is my mind seems foggy when we get into the bedroom, he’s sexy and knows what he’s doing but I can’t seem to clear this fog away and truly enjoy him.

We have had things get in our way a few times now, my period, dryness (due to a sexual assault ptsd), and us being drunk or tired. I also have a health condition in my knees too which makes it difficult to be as sexy as I usually have been in the past with other partners.

He’s a healthy size but I have typically been with guys who are...a little too healthy sized 😂 I worry that I don’t feel tight enough for him. I also find it difficult to truly gauge what I’m feeling (cause of the fog). As a result I’m just not feeling the urges that I want to feel, and yet when I masturbate I think of him, I’m aroused by him, why am I unable to feel the same when his beautiful, wonderful and sexy self is infront of me!? We connect so deeply and I love being with him I just wanna let go of whatever is clouding my brain 😩

EDIT

I was definitely getting into my head about things, we managed to have a successful evening together, I do take a little more work cause of the ptsd and my knees can only do so much before giving up. But I feel like we’ve really solidified our connection ☺️ thanks for the comments 💕