Second or more time moms: did you get an epidural with your second+ if you got one with your first?

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I’m pregnant with my second son and I had an epidural with my first. This will be my last baby so I want to experience “natural” birth but I’m so scared. With my first it hurt to push so much even with an epidural and my contractions before I got it was coming every few seconds. But my epidural also gave me horrible anxiety because it scared me to not being able to move.