Depression isn’t a joke🥴

I suffer terrible depression and guilt. I don’t want to mention what I’ve done (no I didn’t kill anybody) but it’s been causing me so much depression and loss of appetite. I was actually diagnosed with a bipolar disorder which makes things harder on me. Today is one of those days where I just wish I wasn’t alive. I’m on two different meds to basically keep me alive and happy but today is just not my day. I spent wanna feel like this anymore. I’m tired of it. What would y’all do? 😩