Gender disappointment not going away

So I know there have been lots of posts on here about people experiencing gender disappointment and that it’s a real and okay thing. What I am wondering though, is those of you that have had it...did it go away?

I am asking because mine isn’t. I have three beautiful boys who I love dearly, but my heart broke a little bit when baby boy #3 was a boy, and now a year later, I’m still fighting back tears every now and again about it.

I am a horseback riding, crafting, decorating, stay at home mom, girly girl. I have been saving things for my daughter since I was a teenager, and yes, I have tried to see if my boys would be the slightest bit interested in my interest or the things I’ve saved, but they just aren’t. While they are all different, they are definitely the definition of boys.

My husband and I are considering trying once more for a girl, but I’m super scared that if it’s another boy I’ll be devastated.

Anyone else been in my shoes?